no difference

Ever wonder if what you are doing makes a difference? Of course. We all do. Recently I came to the cruel realization that a good portion of 4.5 years did not make a difference. Not a bit.

College sports are a huge part of a person's growing up. In college you solidify who you want to be (in my humble opinion). Well, I played basketball. I was a freshman walk on who played JV for THREE YEARS. After that I realized that Coach didn't want me, nothing I did could impress him, and my heart wasn't enough. I quit playing and helped coach and filmed every home game and practice for the next two seasons. But at the end when Seniors night rolled around...did I get mentioned? did I get a head nod? did I get thanked even behind the scenes....F no.

That I can live with. Hard as that is to say. What I can't live with, what hurts me the most, is that two weeks ago I got engaged, and not one teammate has congratulated me. In five years I did not make one friend on the basketball court who cares enough about my life to wish me congratulations. That's when I realized that nothing I did had made a difference.

Home alone.

it's fun. but not when you only have one day to yourself and lots to do. I don't even have the time to take a bath with all the smelly salts that double as illegal drugs. I have to go to church, go to work, go work out, go grocery shopping, mail papers for loan repayments, and all that jazz. That and I'm all alone so I have no one to complain or brag to. I think that is what sucks the most.

anyway, peace out, Happy Easter to everyone!